version TWO

2007-04-12T17:53:00.000+08:00

Currently listening to,
Paper Cuts - Mew

frufru.net

i reckon i could be a pretty sad person, like permanently yo. thashy bitch thrash thrash core. to make cristal sunshine yay happy again? go on a water fast as long as she can {inserts some smexy awesome shit icon}

me know too well my friends would be sayin', "aye you're so skinny already!" yada yada i am flab/fat, and i know that well, darn. not my bad if y'all feel exceedingly sick of me ranting about my weight/size. i feel like a pig whenever i shove food up my gap. omg gross. obesity shouldn't ever exist, like ever. ana/bulimia is so sexXx, die anyone who discriminates. hunger is beautiful and starvation works.

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tags replied.

person: thank you (:

haziqah: yes she is, thank you doll (: love you.

ming: welcome(: yeah she's romanian, portuguese, japanese and thai.

anonyyy: oh thank you you ooze with sweetness. you should have said hi! (:

kao: i'm considering of buying larger shades to make my face look smaller hahah. do i know you?

lia: hell yeah long time. and we two long time love. i miss you plenty b.

mel: fwanks(:

siia0kia: hey there darling(:

suree: aye am i supposed to understand you? and fred's party was on a school night.

julin: i love you much ah juu.

ale: no i don't. think last year's fashion fiesta was the last.

sera: donkey leg hair.

mutou: thank you!(:

shashah: omg she told us to go home hilarious shit.

passing: you're the cute one hon, thats not my surname! hahah thats part of my chinese name.

kid: daryl does.

2007-04-05T21:13:00.001+08:00

Currently listening to,
Checkmarks - The Academy Is

jasssssssss d love doll, your chica love note never fails to make me smile. eu amar yu e falhar tu somente quanto muito! ♥

a reply to my tags,

julin: ah juu i can do it better. hey hey you you i don't like your mickey!

ah min: ni gu! i am gay everyday. wo ai ni minmin!

oscar: hello carcar! :D

shashah: aye don't you just love art? whee see you!

laura: yay rara me too can't wait, it's been 924758 years!

haziqah: (: much loves, doll face.

ming: you are just as amazing ming, and i absolutely dig your name. so seksi!

jasmined: danker i love you!!!!!!!!!! bad face me have. i miss reading your blog entries! D:

cara: yes yes yes! (my girlfriend's wabbit is called cara too!)

vivian: i know who too, but whatever it's over. can't wait for your birthday celebration hon(: hello love <3

(ending off with a meme!)

p.s: jasminnie dianiiie dankerriee, did i get my portugese right? hah love you much!

2007-04-03T22:17:00.000+08:00

tsktsk. everyone's makin' a hoo-ha out of a molehill when mel and i have already kissed and made up (yes mel?). plus everyone's making mel appear like a victim and me, some grotesque beast. well okay i know i'm like way meaner, and maybe to y'all, stuck up. but it utterly disgust me how vile and nauseating some people can be. you wanna diss me, do it in front of my face. and omg i can't believe i'm so notoriously popular, everyone reads my blog. still it's only basic courtesy to respect me by being less crass while tagging. and hello, freedom of speech? oh please don't give me that bull.

verflucht damonen, einbrennen.

2007-04-02T19:06:00.000+08:00

Currently listening to,
Slow Down - The Academy Is

I never knew ...

1. i was part portugese and malay (both my granny)
2. i had a heart-shaped mole on my left thigh
3. i had a face of a design student (friends&aquantainces said so neeeeeh)
4. miller dean crushed on me
5. sera was so crass she believed i made out with a guy

I knew ...

1. sera is stupid
2. my momma thinks she's way prettier than me
3. i was wentworth miller's secret crush
4. i look hotter with bangs
5. all along i'd get married to edison chen

ah the above is senseless shit to keep me occupied, i miss doing meme/s though. anyhoo daily cell affair with gerrie doll an hour back. post O levels, yes, whether i should work in my sexy uncle's company. but i'd so absolutely dig casting callssssssssssssss! like do some advert, photoshoots or something smexy hot like that.

i am gonna volunteer as a dresser for the next sff! the male models are to die for, maybe i could snag one. brazillian models are so sex, we'd have bombshell pan-asian kids. yay.

anonymous: hello, are you being a joke? or are you a fan of melinda's? omg who are you anyway? i did not backstab, neither did mel backstab. no one's saying who's backstabbing each other. and honey, you're the one who should be getting a life.

2007-03-31T16:50:00.000+08:00

Currently listening to,
Dissolve And Decay - Hawthorne Heights

OMGXXXXXXXXXX I CAN FINALLY BLOG!!!!!!!! SQUEALXZZ HOW EXCITING IS THIS. I AM TRYING HARD TO CONTAIN MY EXCITEMENT, REALLY. Anyway, one of my observation drawing for O level Art >

I really dig this picca. And yes, I need to suffer from Ana. I like seriously need to lose all that wobbly jiggly junkshit. Dying to be skinny, hunger is beautiful. 'nuff said.

The usual dressing room affair shots, taken sometime back. Grotesque body me hfadgfakgbka.

No clue whatsoever that got me bitching (gossiping/bad-mouthing is just a nicer term, so yeah) about my absolutely to die for class friends, with Melinda Tan. Sure, I get turned off by their crass and crude behaviour. Not up to my league I say. But I'd pick hanging around with them over Melinda, anytime. I was stressed having to keep up with my I-do-not-like-the-annoying-girls vibe, Melinda, I was and you didn't know that. I'm so sorry about being such a bitch, namely to PURPLEGAL WANJING AH JUL. I had such a kick-ass time with AH JUL(ZHU) yesterday ♥ Plus PURPLEGAL'S nvahkfaghpir herbal tea ♥ And sorry for being brutally honest and blatantly blunt here, Melinda.

2007-03-06T17:46:00.000+08:00

2007-02-26T22:59:00.000+08:00

Currently listening to,
So Long Astoria - Ataris

Hello. My name is Cristal Amber Bek Yuan Ting. Mixed heritage, Hitler's secret great-grandchild. I speak English, German, fluent gibberish and broken Chinese. My sex friends say I look anorexic, but really I'm just bulimic. I am incredibly mean I make Vin Diesel wallow. I love rolling my eyes and darn, am I sarcastic. I'd kill to be like Gemma Ward/Nicole Richie/Lindsay Lohan/Mishca Barton/Mary-Kate Olsen, but I can't stop gorging. I love falling sick and having terrible sore and swelled throats. I'll be gettin' my tongue split soon, so I won't be able to eat proper chow long 'nuff for me to look Gemma Ward. Smokin' skeletal love.

(love note for jasmine ♥)

2007-02-20T00:10:00.000+08:00

Currently listening to,
I've Been Dying To Reach You - Saosin

Baileys and Chivas left me lobster red and a tad groggy. But i'd do it with my ghetto stars sometime soon, drink in my left hand and a stick on my right. And probably crack and pot at the back of our hands. More to love cheap thrills and dress to kill Fridays. Bombshell.

Alright now I'm supposed to act like I'm obssesed with cunt slut meow. Sure thing I dig her, but I prefer guys. Preferably guys like Edison Chen and Wentworth Miller. Omg twosome so hot, the sun it'd melt. But no doubt, none could ever replace Daryl. Love you forever and a day, Bestboy.

2007-02-15T21:55:00.000+08:00

Currently listening to,
Face Down - Red Jumpsuit Apparatus

I am so anti-chinese, no one believes I'm chinese. But then again, I'm only half Chinese. And I don't celebrate CNY, because everything's just so bright and annoying, acting joyous and all eew. Who cares about the red packets? My momma keeps them in my bank account, I don't get to splurge. Not that it bothers me. Point is I hate CNY so I hate school, because they are celebrating CNY tomorrow. And I'm gonna get screwed by the teachers because i'll be defying their attire rule. God knows what I'm ranting about, feeling darn random now. Ciaos.

a reply to my tags,

herman: woots back hermanx.

jasmined: spanks portugesejapanesethairomanian! love ya hunnybunny!

janevin: hell yeah we'd be the most sexxxxxx couple. love you times infinity jane!

violet: me bamboo pole no more, put on weight. i can't zomg darn depressing.

airell: chan rak khoon mermaid boy! i wanna be as skinny as Cindy omg darn hot. and i know you've a lot of friends, so do me a favor will ya? find me a hot bf, thank you very much.

anon: hello and thanks :D i am not thin, neither am i rich D:

{ME SO DIG MEL, MY PART-TIME THREATENER&BRIBER NOT FORGETTING FELLOW IJ GIRL AT HEART. LOVE YOU LONG TIME MEOW MEL. MIGRAINE AND NAUSEOUSNESS LEAVE HER ALONE. GO GET SOMEUGLYONE ELSE TO HAVE SEX WITH. MAKE SURE MEL COMES BACK ON WEDNESDAY OTHERWISE I'D SCREW YOU, YOU PESTY VIRUS. ILOVEYOUMELMELMELMEL, OUT.}

2007-02-11T23:03:00.000+08:00

Currently listening to,
Watch Me Die - Underoath

VDay is so darn overrated and commercialised, and absolutely disgusting when some shit fella gets you choc/roses/teddybears/corny iloveyou cards because it's the trend to exchange presents and just for the sake of getting 'em. It's so stupid and gross that a majority thinks Vday's a whole big deal, lavishing their loved ones and bff with annoying and useless stuff. Especially nutbrains in school going around announcing they'd be getting you vday gifts, expecting one in return. Like hello sheer insecurity. I know they'd kill to leave school with two bags full of valentine love gifts, like omg i'm so popular everyone adores me. Eew.

I'm not against valentine love gifts. My friends (non-school) and i have like an annual exchange of love. And we sincerely love each other and thats what matters, not like hypocritical individuals ack.

(had a rad afternoon with you doll, more to love!)

a reply to my tags,

SPANKS SEX FRIENDS, Y'ALL THE BOMB YO XOXO!

clarrisa: why, thank you. no i wasn't wearing gray contacts probably my eye make-up and the light(: love you too clar!

hello: hello back(: i'm taking my O's this year.

atiks: heard your boyfriend's a demon.

moon: aww thanks moonie!

shah: no worries omg why sorry, love.

gabriel dearest brother: nic's my friend.

2007-02-04T18:35:00.000+08:00

Currently listening to,
Fight - West Grand Boulevard

(JOY THE CHINESE WHORE/RUNWAY MODEL, SERA THE ACCIDENTAL SEDUCER AND ME THE FAT-HUNCHBACK UNDERDRESS)

How was your saturday? Mine was swell. Company at DXO made it smash. Though Phunk Bar was a tad disappointment, Armchair Critic was awesome. Loved Postcards and the last new song(Grace doll whats the song title?). I've got a fugly purple bruise on my knee, must be the bloody moshing at Phunk. And I got chased out after eleven during my favorite heavy metal wth why am I so bloody young? I'm not even sixteen till next month gah.

Slacked 'round some random stairs like homeless kids after I got chased out. Accompanied Jon to dbl O to meet Nester and Scott. Cabbed down to esplanade, hung at the habour bored to tears. Thank god Barbie Grace came to meet me along with Felix&Pig to squeeze my huge fist/wrist into DXO's sexy tiny tag, with the mighty help of hers and Pig's yay love you both. Then headed to DXO with the rest.

Managed to get through the bouncers, much spanks&love to Grace Doll and Felix. SPANKS AND SORRY GRACE DOLL FOR THE TROUBLESOME TRANSFERING OF TAGS, LOVE YOU HEAPS AND YOU KNOW IT. And Pig, it was nice chatting with you up there(:

Sera and I were V.I.P for a second at the dancefloor, spanks to some nice fat mat turned bastard. Also, this putrid hideous fat shitface hiphop chink placed his bloody pudgy hands on my hips, I wanted to burn his fatty oily groin. And I scratched a guy with my awesome star ring when he tried to get closed to Sera baby. Mofos.

THEN GRACE DOLL, JOY C-U-AROUND AND I HIT THE DANCEFLOOR WITH DARRELL, AIRELL, HERMAN, ZHIHAO, TIMOTHY, ISAAC AND FELIX TEH SEX BOYX OMG SO AWESOME YOU GUYS I LOVE Y'ALL TILL ETERNITY AND BEYOND. MUCH SPANKS (X9584327)FOR THE SEXY WALL AROUND US Y'ALL THE BOMB. AND SORRY FOR MY VIOLENT&HYPERACTIVE PONYTAIL, THANK GOD NONE OF Y'ALL GONE SCARRED. I AM SO TRES GAY I MADE SUCH SEX FRIENDS, AND THANK GOD FOR THEM. PROMISE I'LL BUN UP MY HAIR THE NEXT TIME WE GO CLUBBING OKAY?
LOOOOOOVVVVVVVVVEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

(spanks doll for the chica piccas, i look bloody obese though)

Labels/Joke of the Day: I'm lesbian omg Cristal you're so cool!

2007-01-31T18:21:00.000+08:00

Currently listening to,
Our Sick Story - Atreyu

{there is supposed
to be a picca
here}

i'll be eating like an absolutely gross glutton when my period is coming. 100 percent lardy and sinful as can be junk. especially f.a cookies, i indulge a great deal in them. munching on cookies is zee easiest path to obesity. omg i should tape my bloody gap and swear never to touch that shit. daniel seriously cracks me up everytime he tells me i'm anorexic. every sunday, without fail. aye i eat a lot okay, more than you do. 'nuff 'bout my stupid(yes i know) overweight issues. i was standing in front of my toilet's mirror, nude, gah omg so skinny. i know i type in such vile (and irritating) irony. i've my whiney i'm fat moments. and the next i'm proclaiming i'm thin. i am such a/an pest/irritant. bang bang shootcristaldead, i hate that game. gnia my skinny love do you remember?

i haven't been hitting the clubs in like a million years. so i'm having this wth-i'm-still-underage vibe for the upcoming gig at phunkbar this saturday. pray my daddy kins wouldn't get a bitch fit and disallow me to stay out late, overnight at joes's sex treehouse. me and my girls 'd be having an affair with the camera all night long yo. and i'd want so bad to poledance with my gorgeous gracey dracula sex toy, x and love.

a reply to my tags,

gnia: omg back. yes it's me yo.

eddie: fat bitch.

grace: please do not say that. i wenta get famous amos after meeting you on monday! and i've been eating lunch everyday wth. you'll be seeing a fat cristal on saturday.

clarrissa: thanks clar, self-timer does the job!(:

lia: oh yes a model for that day only. 'twas self-timer sexdoll. and daryl has split personalities, he's violent. not sweet at all.

daryl: i did, when? leukemia!? aye what you dirty lil whore.

violet: not half as skinny as you purple.

anonymous: hello, no, goodbye :D

meeeeeee: is this gracey? 11th march(:

jasmined: oooooookaaaaaay wow, super rojak (x96278) coolio :D

2007-01-28T20:42:00.000+08:00

Currently listening to,
Lip Gloss And Black - Atreyu

a reply to my tags,

javier: i miss you just as much handsome boy! i am so sad D:

gerrie: not half as stunning as you, stalin's descendant. yay to doll&model!

ra: first off, you won't be invited. and hello, you're not anywhere better dude.

eddie: i can't promise you that fatfat

janevin: aww i know you won't refuse my date. i love you jane dolly(:

anonymous: ooh interesting! hahaha why snow white? i'm so tanned. i like ariel though yay.

mel: nicole richie nicole richie, my role model yay yay yay. shut up. love you ij girl(at heart)!

jasmined: you got no muscle mass! no fats, i'd turn lesbo to be with you! ah i forgot, you're my sister. and yes, i'll start eating healthy love.

nicholas: ooh thank you muay thai boy! chrystle doesn't appreciate, i do! imma art student(:

grace: omg rad. but i'd prefer modelling, still haven't got the chance! feel my misery? ):

laura: yesyes got that, love you xinni!

ingrid: sheesh gridey, that was supposed to be a secret aww you suck.

imai: oh yeah i wish i was bones. love you as much taiwanese barbiedoll(:

passerby: aww thank you you're so sweet!

(I will kiss every scar And weep You are not alone)

(i've been eating more than usual this week ack. feeling so vulgar &all now)
i've huge issues with my size. but i don't think there's anything much left to lose, like Mika said, "all's skin and bones" i think my crux for being skinn-ier, is really just toning up. but remember i'm lazy bones. too lazy to hit the gym. i'd prefer starving anytime. and i'm pretty much immune to starving, so it's not that bad. i could refrain from food&water for practically a day, a normal school day. wth am i boasting cristal you're so amazingly awesome (read: retarded imbecile). whats left inside me are pretty much damaged. i don't eat, i suffer, not that it bothers me not at all. i eat, i throw up or pain/discomfort is inevitable. my diet, i know, is extremely unhealthy. but i've grown to enjoy hunger and starvation. sounds a tad sick i know. i'd feel utmost odd if i do not feel hungry. i feel hungry every single day, the kind you just feel like curling up and die. i get occasional dizzy spells. would this sound fine or rather, normal if i declare i've been addicted to hunger? omg omg omg.

(CHINESE MEME!)

2007-01-22T21:10:00.000+08:00

Currently listening to,
Rock N' Roll Could Never Ever Hip Hop Like This - Handsome Boy Modelling School

me, hopefully by the end of '07.

my obsession with being pencil-thin is unsound. i'm yay a bag of bones/anorexic kid/bulimic girl/model to my uh, non-school friends. but widely known as fat cristal in school. note the vile irony. i want nicole richie, bones obsession is sex. and i can hear 'em say, cristal is mad.

guess i'd be skipping nafa's open house this friday along with min. like i don't even know why i bothered signing up, cristal's not artsy fartsy whatsoever she hates art. but i'd prefer laselle sia anytime. my point is, i'm considering taking apparel design and fashion merchandising in tp. yes, and i have to draw. woahkays tres yay. (note the sarcasm) whoever agrees that i'm more of a fashion designer than a business student? but based on s'pore's pathetically miniature market, job prospect is annoyingly vague. i'm pretty much stuck as to where or which course i should choose. but imagine the sense of euphoric satisfaction when you see your acknowledged/accomplished design worn down the runway. that, is really tres yay.

a reply to my tags,

anonymous: i know! :D

min: i wasn't drunk, and my boobs are bigger than yours!

lia: like hello, i'm not as mean as you are. i know oversized people who're really nice.

wanjing: me love you too cupcake.

chai: yes i know, proclaiming it wasn't at all necessary. dog.

mel: ooh mel so sweet(: by the way, is there something wrong with your blog? i don't see no navigations.

Das dankbar nach liebling freundeskreis wie ihr madchen. Wir versprach, bis tod tun unser teil ♥

(A-Z MEME!)

2007-01-17T19:37:00.000+08:00

Currently listening to,
Ain't Love Grand - Atreyu

{Insert Piccas}

i'm so fat! oh yay cristal, miss sunshine is back yo. thank you for the tags, anonymous, violet, clarrissa, imai, zelia and grace. not forgetting the many texts from my sex friends. my four best girls, shan, dawn, chai, kimmi, laura, imai, chantal, chloe, lia, violet, claire, kyer, daph, yuan, barbie, gnia, gerrie, ingrid, jamie, janevin, jessica, jamie, yani, clinton, javier, ekka, eddie, sof, marv, boss, ashiepoo, shaun, bradley, chipap, willie and daryl.

the text messages kept pouring in. pleasantly surprise you ask, duh (x976584). never did crossed my mind a million and one friends would text a carebear message. overdosage of love, valentine.

doin' pretty much ~~awesome~~ okaaay now. my past week was a tad frustration and dashes of thrashy emo vibes. cristal's sincere apologies, with my killer face and non-existant smile.

guess my art topic for O levels! but no prize for hitting bull's eye. yessum damaged, on obesity and anorexia, obessed vs skinny and hunger vs indulgence. i am so rad. (i'm touching on rotten fruits too wth cool factor minus ten) i hate artx. i can't draw to save my life. i hate my ponytail, tiny like a rabbit's cottontail. no link whatsoever, my bad. but really my ponytail is so little it digusts me, i want thick ponytails. mine looks pigtail, not pony. i have a unicorn friend whose a secret fairy and tinkerbell's neighbour. gosh whats wrong with me, estacy. me gotta boogie 'cuz almond eyes would be here in a minute. yeow, love.

2007-01-15T16:16:00.000+08:00

Currently listening to,
Ex's And Oh's - Atreyu

I rise pheonix like a new
From the still burning ashes
Of false hearts lies
To fly once again
To shine from within

no more, that was the last remaining poloroid. and i had to misplace it. Dong's never gonna come back, no matter how hard i cry. like i always do.
i don't think i have that much strength to see my friends leave me. like how Dong and the rest did. i don't want no erasing contacts from my list no more. i don't wanna go through all these over again. so Daryl, please, spare me another heartbreak.

a reply to my tags,

janevin: right on doll(: i miss you.

gerrie: ditto me(: i'm a secret thai. xo see ya thursday.

friend: omg are you yc?

grace: hi my secret crush lover i messaged you the moment i read yours. loves.

jasmined: woahkays thanks darling. when would i bumped into you again?

aidah: oh yes my standard model face yay.

lia: he looks more like my dad, pure chinese. my bro's 185cm and 57kg, i hate that skinny dog.

lee: i don't put on weight easily and i'm fat 'nuff.

manchmal ich vorfindend keine grund auf lachelnd, es ergrimmt ein arbeit.

2007-01-08T17:14:00.000+08:00

Currently listening to,
Bleeding Hearts Shed No Tears - Atreyu

my girl and i share the same sentiments. it's ridiculously insane how friends even bother/managed pairing us up. not ever possible (x937542) like hello(!!!!!!!), sheng's attached and jason's related to sera. spell silly. but we the bomb yo, khaawp jai ja chuaa ni ran daawn. we love each other, we got each others' backs, we have a 9/10 scale insulting and teasin' parties/sessions, but nothing more. and this "policy" would stay as long as possible, we'd be ni ran daawn pheuuan pheuuan i pray. irritate the hell outta each other and meow meow love.

it's odd how sera and i feel about certain stuff, pretty personal to me. and i won't disclose it here. sorry g. omg both of us are so gay, saying we'd be lesbo love. jason&sheng equals gay sex. two hot material kiss, make out and two pet barks humping each other. shit this is gettin' too graphic.

jason, sera, sheng and i the sex. we the dopest crew. lasting forever and ever and ever and ever.. .. ..

flehend unsen freundschaft angeblich daher kampfstark, nichts wollte niemals getrennt vier von uns. gelassen schaffen diese vertrag, nach anbringen unser kindgerecht fur fruhstuck zu McDonalds. Oh mein Gott mich empfindung daher schwuler jetzt.

doch von ganzem herzen, ich habe dich lieb alle.

2007-01-06T03:36:00.000+08:00

Currently listening to,
Bleeding Mascara - Atreyu

(christmas house parties + matrock clan = endless fun)

nelnel's tresses are smokin'. so hot, i-am-so-jealous-gonna-kill-her kind. jet black, long hair is the sex.

a reply to my tags,

cvss pupil: omgx are you my stalker?

clarrissa: we had double the fun (:

violet: bitchroad

passerby: yes

cristal has two new sizzlin' freundin. a hot pair and i were in the same bus, so slammin' perfect together. the boyfriend, of course, extremely yummy. the girlfriend looks uncannily like Kristin Kreuk. i'd turn lesbian to be with her. my point is the girlfriend, Gerrie, asked for my number. i was reminded of her american-japanese favorite bitch. learnt Gerrie's russian-thai, and Kaysonel the italian-dutch. both the bomb, oozing with star appeal. gerrie is so amazingly gorgeous. and a russian-thai heritage is the shit. who cares about me being german-chinese-peranakan eew. have i mentioned Kaysonel speaks way better chinese than me? omg they're so rockin' fly, i'd shrivel in ugliness even if i were ten miles away from 'em.

after twelve 1/1/07 chica piccas are finally up, big fhanks to faith once again. x.

(mafia love)

2007-01-03T19:44:00.000+08:00

Currently listening to,
Noise and Kisses - The Used

(click for kuala lipis peektures!)

2007-01-02T18:21:00.000+08:00

Currently listening to,
Empty Hearts - As I Lay Dying

i started off the new year on an extremely wrong note. i was killing myself with food. and just hours ago, i was gorging myself with chocolate fondue. but nothing's worst than putting on my school thrash and look 200 pounds. i don't know whats up with my school thrash's designer. like eew. i'm so thankful this would be my last year touching that shit. not forgetting my school's height measuring scale and weighing machine, irritatingly being a bitch. everyone in my class thinks i'm 1.66cm and 60kg. hell no, i'm fat but not obessed. screw that whole shit. ra and i are gonna lose 6kg. everyone's gonna think we're nuts. they say we're already anorexic. especially me, cos i whine a lot about me being size 8. i had bulimia last month, but wth i'm healthy now. i like falling sick, i take advantage of that and lose weight. my face looks swollen now, so are my fugly thighs and my arms are insanely flabby. the only thing i like about me are my jutting hipbones, i'm pretty boney. i'm crazily obsessed with my weight my momma wants to bring me to a psychiatrist. i don't know why and what i'm ranting, i'm so sad now i'm gonna starve myself forever.

visit me in the hospital when i become 45kg. tata.

2007-01-01T22:38:00.000+08:00

Currently listening to,
Make Damn Sure - Taking Back Sunday

i dreaded 2007's coming.

2006

- making new friends for keeps
- nothing beats better than having four fab best, best girls
- house parties are the sex
- betrayal, arguements
- losing a few good friends
- death of doug
- daryl's accident
- taking things for granted
- being upset for a long time

2007

- shit O's
- lindsay lohan/nicole richie, bones obsession
- ~~cdc ff~~
- be kinder with my words, i sting
- quit being so superficial
- get married

(2006 meme)

2006-12-30T16:36:00.000+08:00

Currently listening to,
Concubine - Converge

i dig our lipis trip. we talk to the people there like bff, beautiful people. the highlight of our trip was yesternight's. which was also my best night. bimbo talk and new friends lovin'. and i don't mind having a japanese boyfriend.

xoxo

2006-12-26T21:40:00.000+08:00

Currently listening to,
Walls - Emery

(christmas is love)

2006-12-21T15:48:00.000+08:00

Currently listening to,
Dance Dance - Fall Out Boy

i was starving for nineteen hours. so when i woke up this afternoon, i whacked three apple pies. worst crime ever commited, my bad. clinton's party tonight. i picture, littered with condoms and male fluids eew. whats new? strictly abstinence for me. me don't want no falling prey into those lustful bastards. especially ekka; thailove. but on the otherhand, it'd be mighty fun spending much long lost time with my homies after 724639 years. add on the temperature with erika lapdancing. picture that. drop it like its hot.

2006-12-20T18:32:00.000+08:00

Currently listening to,
I'm The Best At Ruining Myself - From Autumn To Ashes

on days like these we find it so hard to push
ourselves up and out of bed,
when nothing falls in favor of.

address full doubt you've ever felt frustration,
well, i'm choking on it now,
and it's the hardest thing for me to shake.

(Gorgeous)

{reading ingrid's lj brings back much much nostalgia of dress to kill fridays. when clubbing and having fun was all that matters. kissing/making out sessions with my barbies, taped away. me want lomo party with my skinny bitches, i'm counting down. (photoshoots in disneyland)
felt like i haven't lost any weight. all my friends are against it. too skinny, they say. throwing on my frumpy school thrash in two more weeks. i'd look like mr (overweight) doughnut once again, vulgar. screw this shit, i'm gonna fly to L.A after my O's. i don't care anymore, nothing else matters.

drill in the star, i'd feel pain no more.}

Mood: Feeling Fat.

eunice, ra, and faith came over to get their garb, thanks dolls. much loves. eunice is so pretty. i secretly looked at her while she was sleeping last friday. i mean like who can resist her? dan is one blessed slut.

{Insert rant}

2006-12-18T00:42:00.000+08:00

Currently listening to,
Ridin' Dirty - Chamillionaire

jan: thanks (: why didn't you say hi?

anonymous: i'm very much asian. aww you're so sweet.

clarrissa: omg dear you were probably the only one who saw that post. deleted it. loves, meet up soon.

grace: xoxo back. cheer up hunnybunny.

anonie: good figure? what good figure? hahaha. exercise i guess. and control your diet.

dawn: really? lol to that. sara herve?

lalala: pronounced as bake.

ming: er i guess so. skinnys+flats.

violet: yeayeas his paul twohill hair is the shit.

dressing rooms affair with Faith. jellybeans lovin' with Sera. bitching party with Jojo. crappy techno dance moves with Sheng. swift i love you candid moments with Jason. insanely wasted hours with my favorite crew. and staying anorexic skinny 24/7. gay memories like merry-go-rounds in a repetitive mode. i've got my homies to thank for, a whole deal. keeping me alive and going. and bringing out the love and laughter in me. i'm so exhausted having to run this race. everything seems so plastic.
xoxo to daryl for sticking by me. my favorite star. you never failed making me feel like a million dollars. bringing out the best in me, feeling fab forever and a day. you got my back. you're my secret carebear. you're the sex.

2006-12-11T18:44:00.000+08:00

Currently listening to,
Soul Meets Body - Death Cab For Cutie

1.

2.

1. i wanna fly to japan's takeshite street. hang out, dress and have a love affair with kinky harajuku girls. not forgetting wicked cosplay style lovin'.

2. i wanna fly to S.F and allow F21 to burn a hole in my pocket. lovely lunches at fishermen's wharf and late nights at funfairs. candyfloss and carousels love.

i have been feeling rather down lately. and i'm not excited about summer christmas no more. my best girls have flown to thailand and i'm stuck in this shit place. but thank god for my cupcake tia. always there for me, keeping it real, spur me on and blow kisses to me. love letters and mad love phone calls at 2am. my rainy days would clear up soon before christmas. anyone, spoil me with a gold necklace with my name as its pendant. and i will love you long time.

XOXO

2006-12-11T00:26:00.000+08:00

Currently listening to,
Death Of An Interior Decorator - Death Cab For Cutie

chomp-ed with jason, jon, scott, den, mag, ra, joes and wen. behaving nonsensically. (your uncle die!) i had satay for dinner, fab. ra and i already made a pact - pigging out right after christmas. i'm gonna have my homemade chocolate fondue once i get back home and breakfast at cartel every morning.

the whole world thought i was wearing tights today, eew no i was wearing black skinnys. wen was the vulgar one, wearing leggings and sitting around violently. behaving like a mad acrobat while climbing the web. wen, you're so cute.

thinking about the gay sex at zoukout just cracks me up. josh, you should have joined them(:

(shuffle meme)

2006-12-09T00:35:00.000+08:00

Currently listening to,
Walking Away - Craig David

hit town with ra yesterday. got my black skinnys from topshop, like finally. but could only find my size and design from the petite section, so it looks slightly short. sheng has the exact same pair, the guys' one. jason's gon get his faded black pair from atticus and joes's from giodarno. i'd be darn cool if all the christmas cast wear black jeans. more christmas shopping to come next week (:

a reply to my tags,

atiks: you're the emo dog.

riddy-ra: what, whats going on? love ya heaps.

nini: why don't you ask jasmine? she knows better (:

2006-12-07T19:20:00.000+08:00

Currently listening to,
Just Like A Star - Corrine Bailey Rae

(DEAR LAURA)

2006-12-06T22:21:00.000+08:00

Currently listening to,
Foolish Games - Jewel

a reply to my tags,

lia: cos he's a bitch. i love your arms, they're anorexic.

jasmined: why babe? i read your post.

serarr: i had no choice but to change this shit. massive retail therapy on friday! oh like sorry, i forgot you are like, broke!

imai: i'm random too. what color undies ya wearing now? love ya too hun. and bimbos are pretty, so don't feel bad being one. (like i know you never do)

{Insert title}
So you hold my hand
Then you walk me home (x5)
(Inside joke)

made a short trip (not really) to vivo with ra late morning. it was surprisingly empty. ra got her I ♥ bebe jeans, and she was hysterically estatic when she could fit into a size25. (shitface, i bold 25)

went on to Guess¿ wanting to try on the black skinnys. but it turned out to be a joke, cos the outlet at vivo only sells watches&shoes. like i don't see the freakin point why they left out clothes. tried on the black skinnys from topshop. but it was too loose, especially at the thighs area. and they didn't have my size.

ra and i were feeling darn gay today, cos both of us dropped sizes. heading to wisma this friday, i'm gon pray pretty hard they have my size26. otherwise i'll burnt down the whole place. what audacity, ignoring my waist size. daring pigfaces.

forever21 at vivo was heaven. ra and i like practically raved at every tops we set eyes on. pretty stuff. kimono-style, chinese and floral designs. hope they don't clear their stocks too soon. i'd be getting 'em for christmas.

headed down to sgcc (haven't been there for ten light years) after hongkong cafe. waited at the poolside till 4pm for the bar to open. we were behaving like dogs (as usual) in the karaoke room. shan't disclose more, utterly embarrassing.

ra and i are gonna be in good shape by christmas, everyone would be in awed. hope i'd be lookin' fab in no time. cos i exercise, starve and diet at the same time. mad shit. ra's goal is Kate Hudson. me - anorexic model, and an additional of 10cm would be greatly appreciated. a la Gemma Ward and Kate Moss.

i wanna wear a tank and look like Kate Moss. i'm like probably 30kg heavier than her.

today's the last day of piggin' out till christmas. crap, daddy just had to tempt me with Lays chips.
blog readers, don't be too shock when i picture post christmas parties. cos i'd look sssssssssssizzling. love all.

2006-12-04T12:36:00.000+08:00

Currently listening to,
La Camisa Negra - Juanes

rambly (special order) burgers for the past two days. dying for more. how awesome it would be if the night market settles permanently here. night markets are hardly set up at my area. i'd never get to enjoy candyfloss, my love.

practicing and putting in much effort for our christmas production, it's gon be absolute fun. love my pimps big time. talking about christmas(my favorite time of the year by the way), i haven't gotten my christmas garb. can't wait. black skinnys from Topshop/Guess, stilettos/kitten-toed from Aldo/Guess and red top from Mango/BEBE. so darn gay i got my red bag from TODS.

a reply to my tags,

geraldine: my spainish girlfriend taught me maka raena when i was like five? and i lost ciara's L.A address, sad fart. we'd be livin' it up when that bitch hollers back 'ere. i'd flood her with xoxoxoxoxoxoxo. and i love you just as much B.

mickey: yes, i know gen. my primary school schoolmate, and basketball team mate.

gnia: thanks bitch. me too love you long time.

grace: me the bombshell? you the sex!

imai: you rock awesome too iiiiiiiimaaaaiiiiii!

clara: i'm G-C-T-V-P, go figure dude. oh yes, i used to get the "you look like selina from INotStupid1" comment pretty frequently. but i don't think so. doubt i can make it to MOS, i've drama practice. i'll get back to you soon babe.

serarr: oh so you're telling carrie to attempt suicide? lmao. this phrase sounds familiar aye. i love you triple-ly much rid!

anonymous: you don't have to feel envious, really.

aiko: aww thanks doll. but i don't think my fashion sense is thaaat good.

i want so badly to go to cdc's fashion fiesta, ditto gracey. but no more tix, no more seats. i've been like lookin' forward to this fashion show when i did not qualify. my friends call me silly to be still clinging on to "ranjeet's call", despite being talent-scouted by Carrie Models. well, my sole interest and passion is still to be on the runway at cdc's fashion shows. i still remembered daryl's message on friendster back in 2004. wanting us to go support cdc's fashion fiesta. i think it was held at aljunied. at that time i didn't had a clue what was secdc. now, i freakin regreted not going. as the saying goes, there's always next year. perhaps i'll audition again next year.

2006-11-29T18:36:00.000+08:00

Currently listening to,
Jealousy Rides With Me - Death Cab For Cutie

i like Mischa Barton. she's so pretty.

i cut my hair and it feels so thin now. i've bangs again. and they look like a disasterous joke, like a man. anyhows, much love to MissFaith who accompanied me for the four hours ♥

day out with daryl yesterday was fab. yes luh daryl, you're so hot and i love your hair. omg you're the greatest creation ever. eew he made me said that.

a reply to my tags,

marilyn: hahaha. thats hot. see ya arnd love.

lol: what if i told you i do?

passerby: thanks, you're so sweet(:

violet: love you just as much babypoo.

clarrissa: appreciate that gorgeous. lets meet up soon!

serarr: hug back.

daryl: excuse me. you were worst with your miss swan smile. anyhows, you made me smile. loves.

D: thanks(:

connie: SECDC's annual fashion show. click here for more.

jasmine: sure thing love. updated(:

lia: yeah i know he sizzles. he just had his hair done. and wth, you didn't come over.

grace: thanks bruised lip ♥ i don't have a sari aye. unless i can still fit into the purple one i bought 9 years ago.

i got nothing to blog about. imma boring person. maybe i'll blog again when there are pictures, cos everyone loves a picture post. so yeah tata.

(ending off with a meme!)

2006-11-27T17:40:00.000+08:00

Currently listening to,
You Give Me Wings - Hady Mirza

i feel fugly&depressed.
i need ferragamo shoes,
chocolate fondue,
dunkin' donuts and
huge cuddles&kisses from my best girls
to comfort me.

p/s: grace su lei naing, wanna go fashion fiesta together? we can wear saris. hello myanmar face, i'm back.

2006-11-19T23:24:00.000+08:00

Currently listening to,
All These Things I Hate - Bullet For My Valentine

my mood has been like a swinging pendulum these days. and daryl has been the victim of all my absurd shit. but he's been heaps tolerating and über sweet&understanding. much loves.

i can't wait for christmas. and yes, decorating my sexy christmas tree at home. and pole dancing arnd it. ooh love it ♥

(meme!)

2006-11-16T16:23:00.000+08:00

Currently listening to,
Tears Don't Fall - Bullet For My Valentine
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i'm like currently infatuated with the fisheye and colorsplash. i'd kiss you to death if you get me a holga fisheye set for christmas!

♥ ♥ ♥

i've got a thousand and one more "i want!" on my list. but i can't possibly list them all down, cos my laptop would probably crash and die.

bag from Chloe

skinnys from True Religion (plus that rockin' stiletto ♥)

sydney bea by Kate Spade

gina by Kate Spade (in black or red)

vintage shades from any random cart store

and that blue
cobalt cap from Gucci that was featured in Urban today!

like OH MY GOD, O's ending in like a flash. can't wait, i so can't wait! am i speaking in tongues? cos my O's next year.

yay. i've been waiting for this, since like forever.
to get my ass outta cvss. then, either drive a boxster porche to poly. or fly to L.A or S.F to complete my whatever education i have to complete, and still driving my boxster porche. also, absolutely free thai, german, french and spainish language lessons from my best girls. ain't that dope or what? i'd be like "living life to the fullest."

{post-Olevels}
my best girls and i'd be giggling like harajuku girls in One Rochester. dancing away on the dancefloor with shots of sex on the beach and sharing candid moments together. a la Gossip Girls in hyatt hotel's aight presidential suite, snapping maniac hot shots. and our guys, they'd holla in with japanese cheesecakes and fondue treats. screaming for room service every six seconds. yo, this is chica sex.

2006-11-15T14:35:00.000+08:00

Currently listening to,
Welcome to the Black Parade - My Chemical Romance

lomo party with my skinny bitches club ♥

a reply to my tags,

mono: i think cigarette and skinny jeans are the same.
andre: thanks(:
chloe: thanks, aww.. you're so sweet.
violet: thanks dolly, but not half as gorgeous as you. yes, meet up soon!
popie: why, thank you(:
lia: thanks babygirl. yeh i did. skinny bitches club, we'd be cruisin' down town in dap's convert yo'.
passerby: dermal punch's beside your cartilage. um that bone area. HAHA. i don't know how to explain it. nape's at the back of your neck.
ware: hello! i'm 1.68m. and no, i'm not underweight darling

2006-11-13T21:52:00.000+08:00

i'm tired of blogging. i might just close this blog.

Currently listening to,
Hand Of Blood - Bullet For My Valentine
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(THE GERMAN. THE FILIPINO. THE IRISH.)

i wanna pierce my,
dermal punch,
hipbone &
nape.

2006-11-02T22:41:00.000+08:00

Currently listening to,
Over My Head - The Fray
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first impressions make aqquantainces decide whether to like or dislike you. but sometimes, you gotta look past the exterior. i have never been the one who made a good impression. and most of the time, i am misunderstood.

i might be working during the holidays. the pay would be fab. i'll be doing fashion shows, photoshoots, casting calls and road shows. really awesome. i'm still contemplating though, cos imma rather lazy girl with near to zero commitment(kiddin'!). plus up till now, i'm still praying ranjeet would ring me up.

now, i have this sudden urge to get my hair colored dark purple. but the consequences would be me risking my tresses to be forced becoming jet black again. though i know i look really hot with jet black.

ratiks's sweet sixteen birthday bash tomorrow. lookin' forward to the ~~piggin' out~~. heading over to rara's in the morn to prep for i-dont-know-what. anyhows, i'd just be with the birthday bitches for the entire day(: and hope they'd be heaps of photos taken at the bash(:

alriteys, time for some Prison Break lovin'.

2006-10-29T21:55:00.000+08:00

Currently listening to,
Toykio Drift - Terrakayi Boyz

had a uber bad hair day!!!!!!!!!!!!!! flat and disgusting -pullshair-

dinner at SGCC was madness. a good photo example..

this is unglam plus a triple dosage of unglam.

ridwan showed his true colors today. truely a gangster, and upholding the indo spirit. AYE. and rara lost her Guess bracelet. and what kandiban(more like knn) told rara was hilariously sickening.

darlene&ariel in dano's dressing room trying on a hideous lookin' dress. waiting for morrell to come.

with this mega-sized fcuk store, i can shop till i become crap broke. but hell, this's not s'pore:[

i'm going to SGCC tmr!(: & jacuzzi soon!

2006-10-28T21:11:00.000+08:00

Currently listening to,
You're Cute When You Scream - Senses Fail

been lazing my ass off. eat, read, sleep, watch tv, eat, read, sleep, watch tv, eat.......................

contemplating over the halloween party over at zouk laters. and Wilson's halloween party. but ya know, halloween's kinda like against my religion. and my momma wldnt be too pleased as well. but i haven't been partying in quite abit. and i pretty miss the clubbing scene. aww i'm bored to tears and this sucks a whole lot.

service tmr. drama practice after that. slack till chow time. dinner at SGCC. life's sucha bore now. and major shopping needed to be done. i'm sick of all my clothes.

i so dig this cigarette jeans!

oh, and i've been considering piercing my dermal punch and rook. daryl got his septum piercing two months back. and now he's deciding on whether to get a surface piercing. i'll be meeting up with skinnyboy soon. he just had his tongue split plus beading. i can't help but cringed when he sent me his split tongue and beads picca.

ouch.

2006-10-26T22:00:00.000+08:00

Currently listening to,
Moi Lolita - Alizee

too lazy to type out what mad fun we(rara,atiks&i) had today. so i'll just summarize.

- riddyduan has "please laugh your ass out if you see me" stamped on his forehead
- i found myself a gangster boyfriend at the country club
- atiks cheated on nizz and got herself an indian boyfriend with sexy hair
- dangdut cheated on vishwa and got herself zipperrrr
- rara and i were gorging ourselves with food
- rara and i bowl-ed like losers
- rara and i are gonna have a one-full-day-at-the-country-club plan
- rara's gonna say 'hi' to riddyduan the next time we go there!
- i'm gonna control my laughing fits when i see riddyduan
- it was a very much satisfying day

(63 things about cristal!)

2006-10-24T21:02:00.000+08:00

Currently listening to,
I Write Sins, Not Tragedies - Panic!AtTheDisco

baby LV!!!!!! loooooooveeeeeeeee!!!!!

sickening viddy from RP. dangdut's class.

5 Things You Can Say When A Disgusting Old Man Is Checkin' Out Your Arse.

1. Your mother's ass is so hairy. George Bush is gonna pop out and say, "Who in America?!"
2. What cha lookin' at my ass for? Your momma ain't got no ass?
3. Oh don't look at me as a white girl. I got an ass of a Black Girl.
4. My ass reflects the beauty of your face
5. I know my ass is hot. Why don't ya check out my boobs too?

had mighty (mad) fun with the Ksistas. especially at rara's darling's. ridddddddddduuuaaaannnnnnnn! not the drop dead gorgeous kind. but he is one ssssssssizzling human being. i was behaving like a piece of cock. laughing hysterically. ditto rara. but only when riduan was there. so he prolly thinks both of us were mocking him. you do not know how bad we felt aft that. behaving like dogs &all.

serangoon gardens country club wld be our slackers paradise now. cute guy serving us, gym, jacuzzi & steam bath. whats not to like? we're rich bitches, and we rock awesome.

2006-10-22T00:09:00.000+08:00

Currently listening to,
Stay - Princess Hours OST
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vivo is so pissing. i got lost finding the exit. i know imma lost case with directions &all. but there were so few signs, and the signs were so freakin tiny. rawr.

i'm so not looking forward to hitting vivo again. but on second thought..

Zara
Forever21
Topshop
Mango
BEBE
Gap
Guess
Fcuk
Warehouse
Aldo

all my fav under one roof.. makes me wanna head back to vivo for massive splurging! plus it's so convenient for me. hitting vivo again next week. but it'd be truckloads better minusing the crowd. it's so annoying having to walk like a geisha. caught my drift don't ya?

a reply to my tags,

juan: yea i accompanied her. it was pretty terrifying for me.

lara: you're so sweet luh(:

popie: we do? hahaha.. why do you say that? & do i know you?

chloe: it doesn't hurt one bit. and you know i've got a super high threshold for pain. & why are you always so sweet?

daryl: me no maneater. stop it foxy lady.

person: hellooo!!! thanks pie(: my top's 19 bucks, from Mango. bag's from Fendi. and my jeans's from a friend(:

darlene saw Jade at vivo today. yes, Jade from ANTM! i was like "WHAAAAAAT!?"

2006-10-20T15:23:00.000+08:00

Currently listening to,
Perhaps Love - Princess Hours OST

one of my weaknesses is being extremely insensitive at times and being unable to watch my mouth. cos sometimes, really, nothing ever good comes outta my mouth. i tend to be uber un-tactful. and i usually hurt or offend people without me knowing. depressing shit.

and i've never been good at comforting or consoling people. i either end up lecturing or mocking them. basically, i'd just make them feel worst. but thats not the worst yet. whats horrid is, i don't feel bad after seeing them more dejected or start crying. (i mean like fuckit stop crying! bitch) i can be blatanly evil. and no, i'm not a sadist. no, actually i am. i love pain, injections and blood. well, thats besides the point. aye what point? i feel retarded.

the above is not directed to anyone in particular.

2006-10-19T16:19:00.000+08:00

Currently listening to,
Sexy Back - Justin Timberlake

i do not know why so many people are asking me abt modelling. i am not a model. its just that majority of my friends are models. so you prolly think i'm one too. anyhows, thank you so very much for thinking i'm one(: thats a huuuuuge compliment. hee.

a reply to my tags,

passerby: you've gotta suit the agency's criteria. i know diva, phantom, ave, and mannequin are pretty famous in s'pore.

andre: i have no idea darling. sry.

eddie: oh yea? and i'll yank off your nipple ring. hi slut.

watched White Chicks in school. it's the one flick i wldnt get sick of, even if i watched it the millionth time. it's so bimbotic(:

comtemplating on re-piercing my tongue. but all my friends(well, almost all) are against it. gah. anyways, steamboat with e4, tonight at ms. but think i'm gonna give it a miss. i do not want a moutainous stomach. hell, no.

alriteys, nelnel's here. i gotta boogie.

2006-10-16T11:18:00.000+08:00

Currently listening to,
History - Funeral For A Friend

5 Things People/Friends Do Not Know About You:

1. i do not use the comb
2. imma german-chinese
3. i check out girls more than i check out guys
4. i think anorexia is hot/love
5. i was hitler's gardener

a reply to my tags

xiaoai: i rmb you (:

kelvin: you dirty lil whore! i love that viddy luh. you irritating handicapped.

mono: thanks(: dancer, no. but i like dancing. yea i used to hang out with my bboys. but that was like, last year?

GO TO HELL!!!!
without you baby, i alrdy am.
- tara, serial rapist

2006-09-29T15:28:00.000+08:00

Currently listening to,
I Can Tell There Was An Accident Here Earlier - Saosin

one of the cheap thrills i enjoy doing is striking off exams dates. like aft every paper you go, "one down, four more to go" ya know that sort of thing.. it makes me feel high.

won't be blogging till eoy's over. unless something major-headline-news happened. like bestayes&i falling into the toilet bowl at marriot hotel. oh yes, and abstinence from Yani. being in her presence, all motivation to study is loss.

till then!

2006-09-28T19:15:00.000+08:00

Currently listening to,
Waiting For You - West Grand Boulevard

i've been cabbing home for the past four days. my bad habit's coming back. someone pls refrain me from flagging a cab. God will bless you for that. ok i'm being crappy.

had an awesome time with the hottest human beings aft sch. we were supposed to study, but we ended up talking more than we studied. fine, maybe i was the only one. completed two math qns. hows that for an aftnoon study?

i gotta mug extra hard. pls do not remind me of that shit criteria. everyone in my class is so stressed now. i think one-quarter of my class is on the verge of breaking down. me? screw it luh.

sometimes i wonder.
everything i do now,
be it being pumped up for God,
or being so enthu during praise.
am i just riding on my friends' high?

2006-09-27T19:24:00.000+08:00

Currently listening to,
Take Her To The Music Store - From Autumn To Ashes

mel passed me a randomly unrandom(inside joke) note and sweets first thing in the morning. how sweet. she totally made my day luh. stephorny, min&le and ling(+ sweets) had notes for me too! ♥ oh, received some sticker thingy from yc on monday (:

change made to the criteria for promoting to sec4 express. fancy only telling us now. really, i do not know how to remain in the express stream next year. screw the committee board, or whoever's in-charged. this is so darn annoying.

2006-09-25T23:47:00.000+08:00

Currently listening to,
Dandelion - Nicole Richie

sunnies from Forever21. lookin' fly.
i know i look more like a housefly than a celeb avoiding the paparazzi.
oh shut.

hot people connect(:(imai's words of wisdom). how very true. i love my friends at hoGc(:! i can't wait for exams to end. we'll prolly be hanging out 24/7. acting stupid and getting hyperly high for no damn reason. plus my alreadyhuge ego is always boosted when i go to hoGc. yc told me i shld join the Fashion Ministry! people there are so friendly. or am i just too irresistable?

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i get into a uber pissy mood when i can't get the messy hair i want. is it my retarded hands or my hair's just not layered 'nuff? i don't care. i'm getting my CL hair by the end of nov.

to-do-list:

1. be 47kg and maintain
2. CL hair
3. grow taller
4. overflowing of skinny jeans
5. stilettos

the list will grow longer, soon. oh yes, and i want braces! they are sexy. i got a new pair of skinny to my pathetic collection. credits to wenwen! fhanks honhon.

haven't been clubbing and spewing profanities for eons. and i am so satisfied with myself. everything i do now just surprises my friends, in a good way.

(a&y: aye i'm neither an abc, pan-asian nor eurasian luh. i'm ~~pure~~ chinese!)

2006-09-18T18:19:00.000+08:00

Currently listening to,
That girl - Chamillionaire
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i know my entries are always so short and random. and usually, rather pointless. i'm blogging just for the sake of it. i don't like talking abt my day, unless something happening or special happened.

i'm having my i-want-my-four-bestayes-right-now moment.

My soul cries out
for more of you, My Lord
My portion, and hope
I close my eyes
and feel you near
There is nobody else
that can take your place in my heart

2006-09-17T20:22:00.000+08:00

wenta HOGC aft service. praise&worship was fab, service was awesome. friends, newly-made friends and everyone were all fantastic. so many sjc girls there la. fun lot. i like HOGC. but no worries, bethanites, i won't church hop.

i bought my skinny ytd. finally! but you know what? i don't think its skinny enough. ok i'd better shut my trap. lest rara&affie roars at me.

i might go to HOGC again, next week(:

spread the love yo'

2006-09-14T18:27:00.000+08:00

1. dress galore
2. red nails
3. stilettos
4. vintage waist belts
5. my $12 000 Hermes bag
6. skinny jeans
7. satin tops
8. messy hair
9. anorexia
10. smoky eyes
11. fashionista-worthy winter garb
12. full-calf boots(CHANEL lambskin stretch skin, $2730)
13. jet black stockings
14. fab trenchcoat
15. cdc annual fashion fiesta

♥ ♥ ♥

i wanna get a fisheye. its like you're seeing photos through a telescope. fabawesome.

bonjourchocchiploaf+nutella = perfecto :)

an overdosage of chocolate fondue. i threw up just now. went out to celebrate bryan's(my teddybear! ♥) fifth birthday in town with dar aft sch. this 40+ horrid looking ~~lady~~ auntie was telling her company that we looked like underage parents
-.-'

"sure shotgun or have pre-marital sex one la. young people nowadays ah.."

ex to-the cuse to-the me. is that pure stupidity or just major blindness?

both? ok i heard that.

2006-09-13T18:41:00.000+08:00

BEWARE : HEAVY IMAGES

sentosa.

east coast.

john's farewell at V8 Cafe

too lazy to caption all the pics. there were actually more photos. but i look bad in all.

2006-09-12T16:48:00.000+08:00

[edited] NewUrbanMale Fashion Show at Zouk on 21st Sept [/edited]

this msg is directed to affie & naima(aww.. too bad its a sch night)

READ THIS.

had revivial prayer with my classmates aft sch. i was utterly impressed and encouraged by my darling classmates(minmin, wenling, leung chung, tong, dan, jianle & yc. lele joined us too). was pleasantly surprised by yongcheng and dan. i felt like a major worm compared to tong and jianle. they're new christians(i think). but there's the passion and enthusiasm. i feel so empty.

despite being born into a christian family and growing up in sunday school. i've never been the kind who reads the bible, say my grace before every meal and do my daily devotion. i am very unfamiliar with the bible. i do not know which books are in the old&new testament. this is so shameful, fancy being a christian for fifteen years.

if i wasn't a christian. i wld be wasting my life away smoking, drinking, tattooing, excessive partying and behaving like a piece of cock now

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yes atika, lets hang out soon. i miss you bangla noseshit. tara(serial rapist) is darn hot. send my love to her yes.

i know our school teachers read our blogs - thats just awfully disgusting. aint gon password my blog. read for all i care.

watch this space.

2006-09-11T16:55:00.000+08:00

HAPPY FIFTEEN TO MINMIN, the sexy shit.

my sexy church clique. didnt manage to find jason's and heman's gorgeous faces. rara and i agrees that everyone of us has the good-looking factor. full of ourselves, i know.

i might get the shades in the second picture. cos that thing touches my nose bridge, so its not so obvious that i'm nose bridge-less. & there's Ariel on the lenses. its kinda distracting though. oh i'm darn crappy.

i might go to Heart Of God sometime soon(: that church's uber cool.

dresses&leggings are amore ♥

2006-09-04T15:30:00.000+08:00

last friday

camera shy, oh how very true

on the sexy tram

bestayes! lets do it again! -stupidgrin-

siloso

tanning

group shot

jason&naima says i look like lay, here -throwupoverwhelmingly-br>

hotness

coach

we were at siloso from late morning till evening. took truckloads of photos. but i'm not posting them. these few are the only ones that were closed to decent. you can enjoy mocking at my non-existant nose bridge. but do not do that infront of me. i'll fly into a full-blown rage. do not even think abt it.
thank you very much.

2006-09-03T00:30:00.000+08:00

one week holiday.

thats like really short. why can't they have a one month holiday? but then again, i wld be complaining why's it so short too. hell, whatever.

i am sunburnt. even my feet is sunburnt. and i'm prolly going to sentosa again next week. talking abt madness.
i looked like i've lupus. and there's this stupid pimple(lets name it magaret) that refuses to leave my non-existant nose bridge. magaret's been there, for like weeks! i wonder when the hell magaret's gonna go away. i look like shit. my skin is red, its itching. & i've humongous mosquito bites on my arms. yes, you can imagine - i look like thrash.

i want my hair like Cheryl and Louis. they have like the hottest hair. i shld have taken photos. their hair is exactly what i want mine to be. just wait, i'll have gorgeous and messy hair like theirs, soon (:(:(:

2006-09-01T23:27:00.000+08:00

i need a nose job, like this instant. i have a non-existant nose bridge. which makes me look like a loser when i wear shades. donations pls?

2006-08-31T18:52:00.000+08:00

my class is a self-proclaimed sweet bunch. overdosage of sweetness, you cld get diabetes. yes, we had a mini party for our teachers today. and the cake's, by far, the most gorgeous thing i've ever seen. though, i almost died aft eating it. my class's boys were like alligators/famine victims. they were stuffing food down their throat. -quivers-

taken during racial harmony(i know its damn delayed shutup). my class's the BOMB (:

till today, i can never believe how adorable i look. aww.. so pls be mighty thankful, i'm your friend :D

2006-08-30T22:30:00.000+08:00

major craving for chocolate fondue.

ryry, wake up soon. you still owe me the chocolate fondue treat, can't wait any longer.

and i wanna show you what chipap got for me.

quickly wake up, please.

2006-08-28T18:45:00.000+08:00

reunion with the ex last night. he is a total faggot. meeting me with swollen eyes and a sore throat.

it wasn't a reunion. am i making it sound too serious? hell, whatever.

the ex, please do not worry abt Henry. he can't die yet. he still owes me a majorly sinful chocolate fondue treat. if he would in any way die first, it would be ME skinning him alive - not the stab in his shoulder. so really, you shldnt worry(:

overdosage of japanese food, i had. on subsequent days. i cld die. and i'm really not fat - JUST flabby. and thats really depressing.

its my dumps-worthy uniform that is makin' me look obessed and dumpy. and it is two sizes oversized. i look like a pregnant woman with thick arms. pure disgustingness.

i am not fat. in fact, imma SUPERMODEL :) -chortles-

2006-08-24T22:25:00.000+08:00

honeys i'm back!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i'll just summarize.

i'd ~~love~~ die to look anorexic. hotness.

my bestayes, till death do us part.

upcoming beach party at sentosa, hope i'll be able to make it.

can't wait for serara&atiks's joint birthday in nov. it's gon be dope. plus cdc ff coming up in dec. all exciting stuff during the year end. how could i not die waiting?

toodles!

2006-05-04T17:33:00.000+08:00

This post is for my laoda/brother, Darius.

You know how much I love you? A gazillion times more than Daryl. You are so damn dear to me. And I'm sure I'm not the only one. There are probably like two million others who love you as much too. So what's up with all that emoshit and suicidal vibe? You know, I would never forgive you, if you do something stupid.

I miss our long heart-to-heart talks at Parkway and Coffee Club. I miss the mad fun we had at the barbeques. I miss hitting town, just the two of us. I miss the mirrors and softy in your bedroom. I miss camwhoring with your Nokia. I miss the way you laugh, the way you sneeze. I miss looking at your tattoos. I miss the way your hair stands. I miss pulling your leg hair. I miss your pikachu socks. I miss cutting your fingernails. I miss pinching your cheeks. I miss writing my name on your boxers. I miss the times when you were always there for me.
And I MISS YOU.

2006-05-01T19:13:00.000+08:00

my neighbors are having a barbeque. and their guests are makin' hellafa noise. grumbles-

chow at Quay 18 last night. a live band, made up of six wrinkled creatures were singing. they were majorly disrupting my meal. i swear my fart would have sounded a thousand times better.

2006-04-28T15:24:00.000+08:00

i won't be blogging till exams are over ~~i hope~~. and i won't be coming online too ~~i'll try~~. my tagboard will be temporary removed. lest some dickhead dirties it.

i gotta mug extra hard for my upcoming papers.

2006-04-27T16:10:00.000+08:00

Currently listening to
Where'd you go - by Fort Minor
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mid-year next week. and i haven't started revising. plus i'm always skipping school. someone kick me please :[
it'd be a miracle if i don't drop next year.

2006-04-25T16:43:00.000+08:00

clickit
homos are the new sex!

a reply to my tags

shan: me too :[
shasha: i know. he's 18 this year
sara: he's super upset too. hows eddie?
siaokia: lol you mad bangla
anonymous: thanks sweetheart :)
mmm: no worries :) thats what people tell me before they know me - Stuck Up
anon: ahaha .. thanks ;)
purplegal: im gon' ban you, you spas!

Mango ambassadors :D

2006-04-18T17:36:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AIAI & DARYL!!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY AIAI & DARYL!!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY AIAI & DARYL!!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY AIAI & DARYL!!!

♥♥♥

one's fifteen, and the other finally sixteen. still a long way more la boy.

i feel abused whenever i look at my two terribly huge and ugly bruises on my right wrist. and my classmates, don't believe it was the injection that caused the bruises. uh like why would i lie?..

~~i think~~ linglele's gonna love me forever when i pass her dean's autograph. LOL. i can picture it in my mind. props go to Joyphuarara :):)

We love You, Ah Dong.
Gon' miss You, like Crazy.
With Much Love, 21 - Our Game.

2006-04-17T22:50:00.000+08:00

a reply to my tags

yani: yeayeas brainless maggots. ilu sexaye! lets hang out soon! :):)

marv: your attempt of acting sexy failed! insane bangla.

zara: right, but i look mature. way mature. so yes, sometimes i do not even need to flash my id at the bouncer. it depends :)

julin: living in self-denial! i'm gonna ignore you! you think you prettier than me, that horny fool would fall in love with you!? N.O! and i always see you tryina seduce her! you nehneh!

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had tuition just now. i got abandoned by aiai and Nicole. ~~two lazy fools.~~ i went alone! but it's alright, cos tuition for an hour only :D wenta meet bb after that. i miss that stupid meow :):)

i am officially broke! anyone needs a domestic helper? yes, i am that desperate. cabbed home after school. having less that twenty now. feeling like a complete moron. and my ~~ATM~~ daddy's not in s'pore. aye how depressing la .. i'll slap anyone who shows of their cash to me now.

still considering to drop by cdc this saturday or not. make me heartbroken only luhs ..

I NEED MOOLAHS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2006-04-16T18:19:00.000+08:00

a reply to my tags

marv: sick lardass
tim: stop bitching, you male slut
daryl: precisely hon. all your brothers luhs
lala: you are? he does? ahahaha ..

went town with seraa. bought a pink Mango off-shoulder. yes, pink. pink pink pink. ok i'm being retarded. but yes, i bought a pink off-shoulder.

sera&i were in Taka, struting into all those branded boutiques. like two rich brats. wearing branded stuff, and carrying branded paperbags. like two stuck up bitches. i love.

*click*
Nicole Richie imitating some celeb
Funny shit

2006-04-15T11:05:00.000+08:00

a reply to my tags

siaokia: then behave yourself, don't do naughty things. ahahah .. daryl bullies me every single day.

kimmi: pervert shit you

sylvia: thanks doll. i love you too!

random: its a headquarters where they deal with people with criminal offences

haoie: i didn't see you. why didn't come say hi?

daniel: i was at town. and i study a lot ok.

dree: yes cocco latte's eight million times better.

marv: your balls suck too

tim: shut up pork brain

i love my friends :D

2006-04-13T22:08:00.000+08:00

i ~~wanna~~ need to go on a Shopping Spree.

went town today. got a fcuk tee. wasn't the one i planned on buying though.

SiaoKia, Marv, KenJi &all had to report to Cantonment this morning. i think this is like the Cantonment season(?) Daniel(Lenie's boy) had to go for an interview also. Marcus &co. had to report there as well. i'm waiting for Daryl's turn. muahahaha .. my spastic camel.

waiting to get my skinny jeans from Guess?, red Zara pumps, bag from Queens Couture, Gucci tote, G*Star skirt, Guess? clutch .. oh wells, my list can go on and on ..

i need many many moolahs!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! gotta get all my stuff before my dad flies again.

Butter Factory sucks balls :[

2006-04-12T15:34:00.000+08:00

Currently listening to
zu wo sheng ri kuai le by - Landy

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i don't usually listen to Chinese songs. but apparently, Jia le aka lele aka my lover has influenced me. Especially on Geraldine's rendition to Landy's Happy Birthday To Me. it's such a joy to have lele around. she brings out the smiles of people, and she's the lifewire in our class. what's not to love about her?

to allmyloves
for the many times you guys were there for me. no amount of words can express how i'm feeling now. really love all you sweethearts. till death do us part :D

2006-04-02T21:45:00.000+08:00

Mr Ashton Isaac Lee. My bestboyfriend. My hottest bboy. My all-time favorite guy clubbing partner. My listening ear. My 24/7 bestie.

Another one, two months before Ashash goes to army. I'm gonna miss him like siao la.

i love you ashiepoo.

2006-03-31T18:10:00.000+08:00

bloody cockanathan ..

just read my mail. SOUTH EAST CDC is holding a party at momo now! yes, i am invited. but i bloody just read my mail! it's from five pm to eight pm. but look at the bloody time now! RAAAAAAAAH!!!~

~~i am seething with rage now.~~ i'm not going, cos it feels so wrong to be going now. and by the time i finished preparing, the party would prolly have ended.

next time i should just bring the laptop everywhere i go. i bloody feel like swearing till the walls crack. bloody hell.

sorry for the sudden outburst of bloodiness. but as you can tell, i am bleeding annoyed.

grace, we share the same pain.

2006-03-27T17:57:00.000+08:00

The "email me" under my profile is not for foolish spams and "i-hate-her" nonsense. Also, taggers please think twice before you tag. Do you have any idea what is called R.U.D.E? I do not tolerate stupid individuals who insult my friends. Need I say more? You, childish morons know who you are.

2006-03-24T16:56:00.000+08:00

a reply to my tags

mayo: i donte know

josh: hope you donte drown there. otherwise Jack Neo and your fans would prolly get depression.

shasha: look who's talking. lol. miss you too!

janice: thanks darling. you are?

A ella le gusta la gasolina
dama mas gasolina
Como le encanta la gasolina
dame mas gasolina

my friends are hooked to Gasolina.
in a Spainish slang, Gasolina means sperm. so i think this song must be damn sexual. donte really like this song, but Daddy Yankee's version nice though,
click to watch
that girl sounds like a prostitute.

i forgot there was cell tonight. so i had to cancel on Daryl. sorry darling, we'll meet up soon ok?

sec3 camp aft mid-year exams(if there is) even if you were to kill me, i will not go. i donte want sandfly bites. i donte want big, hideous blisters. i donte want a suntan. even though chanelove knows how much i love her sunkissed skin. no sec3 camp for me please, i would rather die

retarded dandan sent me this >>

poor guy. LMAO*

2006-03-23T17:18:00.000+08:00

i so need to get the Nokia 7370! deardears got theirs already. but how am i gonna persuade my dad in gettin' me a new phone? "daddy, my Guess? clutch and Gucci sling can wait. i ~~want~~ need the phone now!" i donte care. i'm gonna get it.

and why oh why, does Alden have to celebrate his birthday this saturday!? i am going for the audition. even if my dad says, he'll get me the phone if i go for the party. no way am i gonna give in. the audition comes first.

i guess no one knows how important this audition means to me. and if i donte qualify, i'm gonna be so damn depressed. i haven't told my parents. but i donte think they would even approve. especially my dad. EVERYONE, PLEASE PRAY FOR ME.

on a lighter note(?), there was a fight in class today. a la Scary Movie Three, remember the scene when the priest and the possesed girl were having a Puke War? yes, my classmates spat on each other. and i was utterly grossed out. though it was rather entertaining. seeing how stupid my classmates could be. tskTSK.

can someone motivate me to study? cos i donte have a single motivation to. i scored zero for chem&physics in my progress report. like i'm so dead. and if Singapore contacted bird flu, school's gonna be closed. and we wonte be having mid-year. which is like damn great, Not. cos they would be using our CA, class tests, and class work marks for mid-year results. and i'm gonna be so dead that i would never ever be allowed to blog again. yes, you heard me. so someone kind out there, be MY MOTIVATION! ~~i'd pay you a million bucks.~~ i'll give you my number. ain't that a great deal?

oh wells ..

2006-03-22T17:39:00.000+08:00

a reply to my tags

dree: thanks

josh: aye what, i didn't wanna damage my eardrums.

purplegal: heh .. changed it just you for horny.

megan: heys thanks, you are? yeah i made them myself. the tube's from G-star.

charlene: hahaha why always chiong cherry? stupid durian tree.

jiawen: they wonte. and if its your size you're concern. worry not. cos there're models fatter that you posing for magazines. donte believe? i'll show you the mag. steady la .. you're pretty pretty X)

chanel: shitface! thanks for the meal.

silvia: ayeaye sillyvia! imu many many! miss our bitching sessions. yes! we shall meet up soon!

2006-03-21T16:41:00.000+08:00

i am blacklisted by my physic's teacher. oh wells. nothin' much i can do. cos i donte like him too. stupid shitface, i'll make life hell for him. which i know wonte do me any good. but i donte really care, as long as he feels miserable :]

i feel childish.

anyways, went back home aft recess yesterday. cos there was class phototaking and there was no way i could take the photo with my hair pinned up. but i had a stiff neck also la. and it hurt ~~like hell~~.

stupid bitch naima doesn't wanna accompany me this saturday. we'll go early and leave early ok? you can go for the theatre productions audition what. you'll make it big, and by then, joleo would fall to his knees when he sees you. aint that what you want? so wadya waitin' for?

2006-03-19T18:52:00.000+08:00

you know whenever a camp or youth conference/conference ends, you always go "why end so fast one?" so ignite and synergiz has ended, and back to school tomorrow. grumbles-

i won't go into the lil details. synergiz was just so awesome, presence of God was so strong. especially last night, just wanted to continue lingering in His presense. but it was rather late and had to leave. cos we still had service the following morning. anyhows, really dig this year's synerg!z. love the two wonderful Pastors especially :):) those who missed synergiz this year, really missed a whole ~~damn~~awesome lot!

headed down to a TopShop, Dorothy Perkins, Warehouse, Nike and Fox sales. prices were really fetch, though not much good stuff left. cos today's the last day. got myself a Fox green lace camis though :]

cdc audition on 25th.

2006-03-08T19:13:00.000+08:00

Skipped school again. Went to meet shan for breakfast at sk. Then dua tao &co. came down. Slacked around, then headed back home.

I won't be blogging in another 3628492 days.

Till then

2006-03-06T16:01:00.000+08:00

LOVE TO ALL THE SWEETHEARTS WHO CHEERED ME UP :):) I AM FINE NOW.

captain's ball training yesterday was finally fruitful. ~~everyone~~ i almost died. though, i kinda enjoyed it. at this rate, i can shed my extra fats in no time :D provided if i don't pig out after that ..

back in church after training, i went kuku

then joy followed suit

as usual, jiawen and i went to joy's place after training
as usual, we bought barcadi
and as usual, we camwhore-d. !!

i looooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooove. !!

please do not stare at my extremely define hair parting

i am tall, not

jiawen is pretty pretty, look at joy's retarded face

trying ~~very hard~~ to make our eyes bigger. look at my fucking eyebags ..

last shot before my bitch and i headed home

thank you darlings for all the sweetsweet tags ♥

josh: yes, you're so damn ugly

mickeydoll: yes please :)

yani: :) ilu too sexaye

jiawen: ok, same goes to you :)

i feel so loved :D:D:D:D

2006-03-04T21:12:00.000+08:00

EDDIE:
I AM SO DISAPPOINTED IN YOU

2006-03-01T00:34:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY!!

i purposely chose this super unglam photo of Josh :D and no, you can't see baby cassie.

2006-02-27T19:37:00.000+08:00

i don't think i'll be blogging in the next couple of days. school is screwed up. asp every single afternoon. we're not robots okay? fucking shit.

went to meet shan after asp. while waiting for me, she finished half a packet of cigs in an hour. insane asshole.
went down to amk to meet hao, leng kia and jayson. then marv and gang came down. then they went to play pool, shan and i took a cab back.

gonna accompany shawn put tattoo, after his probation.

this >>

2006-02-24T22:57:00.000+08:00

anyone wanna go kbox? call me. ~~i'm dying to go.~~

i think i just put on 5kg. had lunch at pizza hut two times in a week. and i always leave feeling so stuffed and bloated. i could just die.

skipped cell today :D planning to skip youth service tomorrow. but can't. ~~wth~~ ..

ANYWAY, went down to sk to meet Leland &co. passed kenneth his marlboro red. then brought drinks up to ahteck's. had to leave earlier. cos you know, didn't go for cell and my mom's not happy. the boys sent me home, then they headed to bedok. some stupid problem.

eddie &co are ~~prolly~~ enjoying themselves at Zouk's Annual HipHop Party now. RAHRAHRAHRAHRAHRAHRAH!!!!!!!!

conferencing with siaokia, timo and tanglang now. tanglang says i'm the kind of girl ahbengs LOVE. mind you, he said LOVE. yes, LOVE. can someone slap him please. he went, "that night you came to my chalet, a lot of them wanted your number right? but you didn't give. how come? all so good-looking(and he added, like me)" *i almost puked* sorry to digress .. "when you left, they asked me for your number. and i gave it to all of them .." when i heard that, my heart stopped.

"kiddin la!"

-.-"

2006-02-22T19:35:00.000+08:00

aye my good&faithful blogders(blog readers-coined up by xiaxue), if you wanna read my other feb posts, go to archives. cos i'm posting one entry on my site. just to let y'all know, not that i'm doubting your intelligence or whatsoever.

i feel utterly ~~stupid~~ high today ..

today i went, "min, after school got AST?" wanted to ask whether we had ASP(afternoon study programme)
i don't know what's wrong with my mouth today. i called eddie, mommy. wtf.

wanted to go with hao and tiong to songka. changed my mind, i'm so tired. ASP almost every single day.

i wanna transfer to NASS. !! can i? can i?

2006-02-21T18:33:00.000+08:00

Shir's getting married. she and Andy are lookin' so damn sweet together. congrats :D

didn't go to school yesterday, so missed st again .. total yayness.

crashed town with Alison and Mia, my KuanSanTang bitches. had hellafa fun.

mia: knnccb can .. you know the one who got shot? from siao sia .. nbcb
alison: yah then the gunman from AST. wtf ..
me: the serangoon shootings uh?
alison: yah nbcb fuck **s
mia: hope their motherfatherwholefamily niaoniao hongan nah
alison: oei nbcb *** de (shows middle finger at a 18s gina)
me: please don't get me into trouble .. (crawls away)

i think you caught my drift. or did you not?

2006-02-20T10:56:00.000+08:00

WE HAD A BLAST YESTERDAY

jiawen and i had a mini drinking session at joy's yesterday. so high .. i'll let the photos speak.

Still sane

Then we started gettin' high

The ultimate

the most adorable ~~pervert~~

NOT FOR THE FAINT HEARTED

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2006-02-18T13:50:00.000+08:00

last night

ahsiao and i accompanied xiaoden to pasir ris, to get his cheque. then headed down to momo, the rest were already there.
then in the queue, an elite model manager asked if i was interested. that inflated my already big ego :D Elite lei ..

the bouncer last night was fucking thorough and strict. i almost couldn't get in. but thanks to darling Audree, who checked me in :)

the music was horrid, the DJ looked like a coffeeshop uncle. i think we spent less than half an hour at momo(?)

then we thought ..

Balcony!!!

then we realised, i was far too underage. wtf.

Miserably and Sulking, we walked to cine. then i remembered, tanglang had chalet.

so headed down to dte. reached tanglang's chalet and i went, "Fuck, how come i'm the only girl?!"

cause he told me, my baobeis and purmeis would be there. so i was kinda looking forward to seeing all of them. and that stupid peabrain lied. !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

so i taught him a lesson. i smoked all his cigs, pop all his ice and ate up his whole birthday cake.

Kiddin'!

i was rather pleased. beacause tanglang's cuteahbeng friends asked for my number. muahahaha !

but most of them looked like walking vandalised walls ..

anyhow, i know you must be wondering whether i gave my number .. of cos not. i don't have the habit of giving my number to randoms or you could even say, to cute randoms. but you know it all depends .. if Lionel asks, i'd give him my house address too :]

anyway, his birthday cakes were dang good. there were three cakes, two were from his friends. tanglang bought a huge cheese cake. it was fucking delicious. the other was an ice-cream cake. and the last one was a beautiful choc cake from swensens, with the PaHaiTiong icing.

and i think there was a one year supply of food. i've no idea why tanglang bought/ordered so much. but somehow, there were no leftovers. i think he either invited pigs or famine victims to his party.

and after the birthday singing and cake cutting. tanglang got screwed up terribly. took loads of photos. wait till i got the time to upload all.

Happy 20th Miumiu darling!!

sorry for not being able to make it for your party tonight :[

2006-02-17T18:07:00.000+08:00

had lunch with my girls, then went to meet twinny. we went to ps to get her fc.

to the bigfatliars who said i looked like twinny, gofuckyourself. cos twinny is damn gorgeous SIA.

headin' to momo laters. with my 21t braddas~ i miss all my knnnbcb yandaochaoahbengs.

and i got his photo in my phone. who want see? who want see? muahahaha ..

pardon me for my dorkiness in this post. and thank you for reading this whole chunk of shit :]

2006-02-15T19:32:00.000+08:00

fucking gorgeous.

dan's 21st, he really stinked

a reply to my tags

fennie: happy veeday! don't call me ahlian :(

dreee: thanks, happy valentine's.

shan: happy veeday baby!

joe: shutup kuku. hope you have lung&breast cancer. fucking always sio hun ki ..

eddie: ahaha .. toilet model and you're my staircase model. and yes, i absolutely agree with you.
that i'm the prettiest girl alive. muahahaha .. 21t ~

my deardears gave me a Bits & Pieces personalised pendant. i so love it!

received 46374924 chocs&candies again. i'm about to have a sore throat, after eating 10kg of mighty awesome chocs. but what's Valentine's without chocs?
(this is how i comfort myself, when i have 10kg of choc mass in my body)

and yes, he looked almost edible after the match <3>

2006-02-14T22:21:00.000+08:00

♥ Happy Valentine's Day! ♥

Spent VeeDay with Ashton aka my bestie aka my fav bboy aka my hottest clubbing partner aka mr hugs.

And I so love him. Too lazy to go into details. Ask me if you wanna know.

Thank you for the heaps of chocs
Thank you for the candies
Thank you for the teddies
Thank you for the cards
Thank you for the flowers
Thank you for the messages
Thank you for the greetings
Thank you for making me smile :) :)

Keep the presents coming ! Everyday's VeeDay :D

Okay, so i was rather disappointed with Lionel .. but what more could i expect?

xiao ru apologised. at least she knows where she stands. if you ever do that again. mark my words.You'll be sorry.

2006-02-13T18:28:00.000+08:00

so you have a fucking problem with me?
you know what? go look at yourself in that bloody mirror before you start talking to me in that tone. you putrid cunt.
and sorry for being prettier than you.

FUCKING BITCH.

2006-02-11T23:19:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 16TH BIRTHDAY.

2006-02-10T21:50:00.000+08:00

i am a flower quickly fading
here today and gone tomorrow
a wave tossed in the ocean
vapor in the wind
still you hear me when i'm calling
you catch me when i'm falling
and you've told me who i am
i am yours, i am yours

2006-02-07T22:17:00.000+08:00

i eat truckloads during my period. and that's so depressing, cos i'll be an eyesore to all. y'all will see a big fat cow on saturday :(

you know .. reading your email makes it very hard for me to talk or even look at you

daryl: imu